(…) Before leaving to go to the former World Trade Center site, I turned on the TV, and what I saw down at Ground Zero was not quiet relief and gratification that the culprit had been caught. Rather, I witnessed a frat boy-style party going on, complete with the shaking and spraying of champagne bottles over the crowd. I can completely understand people wanting to celebrate – like I said, I, too, was happy – but something didn’t feel right. It’s one thing to be happy that a criminal has been captured and dealt with. It’s another thing to throw a kegger celebrating his death at the site where the remains of his victims are still occasionally found. Is that who we are? Is that what Jesus would do? Is that what Jefferson would do? I was reminded of the tale told to me as a kid, of God’s angels singing with glee as the Red Sea came crashing back down on the Egyptians chasing the Israelites, drowning all of them. God rebuked them, saying, “The work of My hands is drowning in that sea – and you want to friggin’ sing?” (or something like that).

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The official story from the Pentagon changed four times in the first four days! It went from OBL firing on the troops with one hand and using his wife as a human shield with the other, to, by the fourth day, not single person in the main house, including bin Laden, being armed when killed. Instantly, this created a lot of suspicion about what really happened, which itself was a distraction.

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We did exactly what bin Laden said he wanted us to do: Give up our freedoms (like the freedom to be assumed innocent until proven guilty), engage our military in Muslim countries so that we will be hated by Muslims, and wipe ourselves out financially in doing so. Done, done and done, Osama. You had our number. You somehow knew we would eagerly give up our constitutional rights and become more like the authoritarian state you dreamed of. You knew we would exhaust our military and willingly go into more debt in eight years than we had accumulated in the previous 200 years combined.

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I know it will be hard to turn the clock back to before 9/11 when all we had to worry about were candidates stealing elections. A multi-billion dollar industry has grown up around “homeland security” and the terror wars. These war profiteers will not want to give up their booty so easily. They will want to keep us in fear so they can keep raking it in. We will have to stop them. But first we must stop believing them.

Read Michael Moore’s full post here.

I finally saw Avatar the other night (in 3D), and I must admit that I was impressed.  After reading some reviews and comments prior to seeing the film (while avoiding spoiling too much), I went in to the theatre fully expecting to hate it.  After complaints about the cheesy dialogue, clichéd story and inaccurate science, I was anticipating that my over-analytical brain wouldn’t be able to stop nitpicking and just enjoy the movie.  However, I was pleasantly surprised.  Not only were the visuals stunning, but the story was incredibly moving and I found myself blinking back tears a couple of times.  In fact, the first thing I wanted to do after the movie was go home and sob.

When I first heard about Avatar, I was expecting a dark sci-fi epic along the lines of James Cameron‘s previous movies Aliens and The Abyss.  When I first saw the trailer, I was all, “Tall blue jungle-dwelling aliens?  A love story?  Seriously?” and was having second-thoughts about my excitement for the movie.  Thankfully, Mr Cameron has restored my faith in his film-making abilities, which I’m sure was keeping him up at night.  Avatar truly is an epic film that fits this zeitgeist perfectly, despite being conceived and written fifteen years ago.  There probably isn’t a better time than now for a film like this that addresses the political, environmental and spiritual themes that the film portrays.  If it had been made fifteen years ago, when times were better, when the economic and political landscapes were rosy compared to today, and when global warming was but a glimmer in Al Gore‘s eye, it’s entirely possible that the important messages that the film contains could (and would) be overlooked.  And that, to me, is the amazing thing – here is a much-hyped action blockbuster that actually contains valuable messages, if you can just look beyond the gorgeous visuals, epic battle scenes and rehashed storyline.  This is a film that will undoubtedly be seen by an enormous amount of people, including those for whom war, racism and environmental destruction are things to support, or at least ignore.  It is my hope (as I’m sure it is Mr Cameron’s) that this movie may help people open their eyes and perhaps change their way of thinking.  Don’t get me wrong – I’m aware that all the themes in Avatar have already been thoroughly covered in other (sometimes better) movies – but very few of these other films have the opportunity to be seen by such a large and diverse number of people*.  Those walking in expecting simply sci-fi eye-candy and some big explosions may walk out with more to think about.

So if you haven’t seen the movie, that is what I implore you to do.  Sure, enjoy the beautiful landscapes, chuckle at the corny dialogue, ooh and aah at the 3D, and perch on the edge of your seat during the climactic battle scenes (you may have to – after 2 and a half hours, you’re probably going to need to change positions).  But most importantly, allow yourself to be moved by the message.  We should all envy the Na’vi and the harmonious relationship that they have with their planet and their god, who is merely a representation of the interconnected energy of all the planet’s organisms.  Compared to them, it is humankind that is truly primitive.

On a side note, during the previews my friend Nadia made an interesting observation that we were not unlike people watching motion pictures for the very first time way back in the early 1900s.  Everyone in the theatre was oohing and aahing over the 3D trailer for Tim Burton’s Alice in Wonderland the same way that people well over a hundred years ago would have been gasping at the first moving images – except the Cheshire Cat floating above the audience’s heads would have been a grainy black & white train hurtling towards the screen.  And the way I asked Nadia if she had seen much 3D was reminiscent of people in the early days of cinema asking their friend if they had seen many movies.  Just like the people in the olden timey days, we are experiencing the birth of cinema – except this time it’s in 3D.  Neither James Cameron nor IMAX pioneered 3D films - they’ve been around since the 1950s – but they have become more commonplace.  It’s not uncommon for there to be at least one 3D film playing at any given time, and many films (such as Toy Story and Shrek) have been re-released theatrically in 3D to take advantage of evolving technology.  With 3D television sets already on the market, many people are predicting that 3D will soon become the norm.  It’s only a matter of time before we turn to our friend and ask if they’ve seen any good holograms lately.

*Last year’s District 9, which also features aliens and could rightfully be called an “action blockbuster”, dealt with xenophobia and segregation very thoughtfully – however, it’s possible that due to the appearance of the aliens, it may have been difficult for some people to empathise with them.  Some may argue that the character design of the Na’vi in Avatar lacks imagination – they are, after all, basically tall blue people with tails – but to Cameron’s credit, it is their very human-like appearance that helps the audience relate to them and their plight more easily than to the “prawns” in District 9.

After yet another argument heated discussion with my family, I realised it was time to continue with this blog.  My sister had a great point when she accused me of not taking any action regarding the things I’m passionate about, so hopefully resurrecting this dusty old thing will shut her up (and I mean that in the nicest possible way!).

Rebirth necessitates change, hence the new blog title.  Yes, I’ve already changed it three times.  No, I don’t care.  For the record, this will be the last time, because I think I’ve finally found a title (and song) that perfectly sums up not only myself, but also the (intended) content of this blog.  ‘Nuff said?  Good.

The title, of course, comes from the Metric song of the same name.  It’s the debut single from the album Fantasies, which was probably my favourite album of 2009.  There’s no denying it’s a little more “mainstream”/”radio-friendly” than their previous efforts (probably intentionally so), but the songs are well-constructed and Emily Haines‘ vocals are gorgeous, so it still works well as both a great Metric album as well as an awesome indie/pop/rock album in its own right.

“Help I’m Alive” is a brilliant album-opener, and it also exists in an acoustic version that gives a whole new perspective to the song.  The situation is reminiscent of Emily Haines‘ reworking of an early Metric song, “Dr. Blind”, for her solo album Knives Don’t Have Your Back - what began as something poppy and upbeat became dark and brooding.  It’s an interesting experiment, and if Emily chose to do an entire album of acoustic Metric songs, it would undoubtedly be a completely different listening experience compared to the original work (hint, hint, Ms. Haines).

• mp3:  Metric – Help I’m Alive
• mp3:  Metric – Help I’m Alive [acoustic]
• mp3:  Metric – Dr. Blind
• mp3:  Emily Haines and the Soft Skeleton – Doctor Blind

• mp4 video:  Metric – Help I’m Alive
• mp4 video:  Metric – Help I’m Alive [acoustic]
• mov video:  Emily Haines and the Soft Skeleton – Doctor Blind

i read an interesting article the other day that suggested we live in a “computer simulation” – that our version of reality is nothing more than a constructed world akin to that seen in the Matrix movies or a Will Wright game.  earlier this evening, i mentioned it to my other half, zero, and we got into a rather heated discussion about the idea on the way to the supermarket (and in the supermarket… and on the way back home… and then for a while at home…).  it was only heated because i can be pretty stubborn when defending an idea – while i don’t necessarily believe we do live inside a computer simulation, i definitely believe it is a possibility.  after all, our universe is so elegant, so mathematically precise, that it’s impossible not to draw comparisons with a computer program.

the basic idea behind the theory is that if we assume that posthuman civilisations achieve the potential to create “realistic” simulations, perhaps based on their human ancestors, and a great many number of these simulations is created, then logic and probability suggests that our reality could be one of those “virtual” ones.

i think the whole idea upset zero a little, and he kept asking questions like, “if that’s true, then what’s the point of living?”  which is actually a valid question.  if mankind were to discover that life was nothing more than a complex simulation and we are merely “intelligent” Sims, what would that mean for us?  sure, it might answer some of the questions that have been plaguing us for centuries (“why are we here?” “is there a god?”) but it’s unlikely these answers would be the ones we wanted to hear.

i personally see no real distinction between a world that was created as a computer simulation by posthumans, one that was constructed meticulously by God, or one that was brewed in a laboratory by an advanced alien race (apart from the obvious differences, of course).  in all of these cases, the world is merely a stage and we are the actors with no tangible connection to the director.  hell, we don’t even know if there is a director, or if we’re just running around blindly trying to figure out our next line and the meaning of that last pivotal plot point.  and would knowing which of these possibilities was the actual reality drastically alter the way we live our lives?

a reader of the Sentient Development blog commented that “we’ve now entered the realm of an untestable hypothesis.  any and everything could be ‘explained’ with this theory”.  both parts of his statement are true – it is kinda pointless debating something that can probably never be proven (by us, anyway), but i think it’s the latter part of his comment that appeals to so many people – it does appear to explain everything in our universe quite neatly.  (why are our laws of physics so? - because they were programmed that way, etc).  it removes the difficulty of actually having to explain everything.  of course, this argument is really no different from “because God made it so”, but as i said, it really makes no difference who our god is; posthuman, alien or otherwise.

so do we live in a computer simulation?  maybe.  does it matter?  probably not, although there are some implications we should consider.  if we do live in a simulation, it probably means that the human race evolved at some point to a stage where it was technologically advanced enough to create a computer simulation realistic and complex enough to fool its inhabitants.  that’s gotta be a good thing, right?  but if we don’t live in a simulation, then the opposite is probably true – that humans will never evolve to a posthuman stage.  or maybe we did/will evolve, but posthumans had/will have no desire to create simulations.  which would also be a good thing for us, ’cause it implies that our reality is probably… uh… “real”.

i doubt that we will ever know for sure whether or not we exist in a computer simulation, and, like zero, i secretly hope that we don’t.  while it might be nice to suppose that George W. Bush is just the god-gamer’s sick idea of a joke, the idea that humankind might be destroyed (or destroy itself) before it could evolve scares the shit out of me - but not as much as the idea that our thoughts and emotions are somehow…  synthetic.

update:  Keith Olbermann discussed this theory on Countdown the other night.  watch the video on YouTube here, or download a .mov version below.

• article:  Our lives, controlled from some guy’s couch  (via Daily Grail)
• article:  The dark side of the simulation argument
• essay:  Are you living in a computer simulation?
• .mov video:  Countdown – Virtually here

it was a tragic incident, and needs to be discussed.  so was it wrong of American broadcasting network NBC to air and distribute portions of Cho’s multimedia suicide note?  many seem to think so.  the parents of one of the victims even went as far as cancelling their appearance on NBC’s TODAY Show.  but as far as i’m concerned (and my husband Dylan backs me up on this one), pissing off a bunch of viewers and offending the victim’s parents is a small price to pay to allow us, the disattached masses, a glimpse into the mind of a killer.  i’m sure my remarks sound callous, but let’s be realistic – for a start, what could the parents of one of the victims say that we, the viewers, don’t already know?  we know the families and friends of the victims are grieving – we grieve with them.  we know that losing a loved one is one of the most painful events anyone could possibly experience.  there is nothing that these people personally affected by the tragedy could say that a compassionate public doesn’t already understand.  what we don’t understand, however, is what the killer was going through at the time, and how he could commit such a brutal act.  we can’t comprehend how one man could take thirty-two innocent lives.  and quite often in these situations, we will never know. 

however, this killer left us a clue in the form of the multimedia “manifesto” that he compiled and sent to NBC on the morning of the massacre, after he had already killed two people and was about to kill a whole lot more.  this “manifesto”, and Cho’s sketchy past, are the only real clues we have to what was going on in his mind at the time, and it is not until we take all this information into consideration can we formulate any sort of theory about why he did it, and what we, the compassionate public, can do to prevent this sort of thing happening again.

unfortunately, one of the first articles i read about the incident immediately delved into the conspiratorial aspects of the tragedy, and suggested that instead of blaming lax firearms laws, we should blame violent video games and antidepressants.  i remember the good old days when television was blamed as the root of all evil, but now, instead of taking into account the thousands of people being killed in George W. Bush’s illegal war, or the graphic violence shown in our movie theatres, we point the finger at…  video games?  yes, Cho was disturbed, but was this really due to a combination of first-person shooters and prozac?  video games don’t kill people – guns kill people.  and why was he taking antidepressants in the first place?  was it due to the bullying he recieved at school?  was his intense anger caused not by videogames but by everyday people in everyday society? 

don’t get me wrong – i’m not trying to blame the victims, nor am i defending the killer.  all i’m saying is that the answers aren’t always so easy to find.

i’ll be the first person to admit that i’m a loner.  i was bullied a bit at school.  i take prozac for my depression (ie, stress) and social anxiety.  and guess what – i also play violent video games.  fortunately, this combination of factors hasn’t turned me into a gun-toting maniac, and to be honest, i’m not afraid it ever will.  i’m also reasonably confident that even having possession of a gun wouldn’t be enough to sway me to kill someone.  but let’s face it – the likelihood of these people dying would have been greatly decreased had Cho’s access to guns not been quite so easy.  apparently, one of his guns was purchased from a pawnshop, and the other was ordered online.  it’s the ease with which he purchased these weapons that causes me the most amount of concern.  but naturally, Americans want to protect their second amendement right to bear arms, so the fact that a 23-year-old college student had two guns is not as important as what he did in his spare time.  after all, if another student present during the shooting had had a gun of their own, there is a possibility that they could have prevented (some of) the killings by shooting Cho themselves.  someone needs to remind people sharing this point of view that two wrongs do not make a right.  conversely, Cho’s troubled past does not justify his actions either.  all i am trying to say is that there are two sides to every story, even if one (or both) of the sides is “wrong”, and it’s important that we, the public, is able to see all sides, if not just for the basic human right of being allowed to make up one’s own mind.

so was NBC wrong for making Cho’s final words available to the public?  in my humble opinion, no.  sure, i found many of his personal photographs chilling, and probably just watched the clips to satisy a morbid curiosity to see what all the fuss was about.  but i saved the clips i watched, and have filed them in a multimedia folder on my hard drive next to “911 truth” clips and the Daniel Pearl execution.  does viewing – and saving – these clips make me a sick bastard?  i’m sure my family, partner and kitty cat will attest to the fact that i am not evil or mentally disturbed.  so why did i keep them?  because they’re real.  because these types of events happen all too frequently, and we, as a society, need to learn from them to stop history reapeating itself. 

recently, my father sent me a link to a clip compiling 60 sniper shots by Iraqi insurgents against the US military, and for a moment, i was a little taken aback.  why was my father, one of the most gentle and compassionate people i know, forwarding clips showing American soldiers being murdered?  but the answer’s really quite simple – because it happened.  these things happen every day, but we’re lucky if it’s featured in the crawl along the bottom of the screen during a news programme.  we’re told about these soldiers being killed, but without seeing it for ourselves, the reality of the horror is often completely missed by the audience.  the deaths become a statistic, merely faceless numbers.  sometimes we need to be reminded that these are real people committing these horrific acts, and that these are real people that are dying.

i’m sure some people (ie, manga fans) will be horrified by my making this connection, but i can’t help thinking about this whole Cho/”manifesto” business while i’m watching the anime Death Note.  the main protagonist in the story is Light Yagami, otherwise known as Kira, who has the power to kill using a supernatural notebook dropped by a Death God.  by simply picturing his victim’s face while writing their name in the Death Note, Light takes it upon himself to rid the world of evil by killing all the criminals.  he hopes that when society realises evil deeds will lead to certain death, a form of utopia will be created – a utopia where he is the ”ruler god”, where he is justice.  all the while, he is being pursued by the world’s most brilliant criminal investigator known as only as L.  i’m usually not a huge fan of manga, but i find this series both engrossing and incredibly thought-provoking.  the line between right and wrong is often blurred, and it’s difficult not to sympathise with Light.  although we know that two wrongs don’t necessarily make a right, and technically we know that Light’s actions are morally (and socially) objectionable, we can’t help thinking that if we were in a similar situation with the same sort of power, perhaps we would do the same thing – for the “good” of all mankind.  and this has been happening throughout history for as far back as we can remember – the religious crusades, ethnic cleansing and even the actions of people such as Seung-Hui Cho were all committed because someone thought the world would be “better off” without certain types of people.  the compassionate human knows these ideas are not right - are not good – but usually we don’t really know how or why someone else would think otherwise.  that’s the beauty of Death Note – it lets us into the mind of the highly intelligent and charismatic Light, helping us to understand that sometimes good intentions are, in fact, morally reprehensible, even though they may seem perfectly sane and reasonable.

English-subtitled episodes of Death Note are available in a number of places online.  You can get them through BitTorrent, or download them from couple of websites.  my preferred choice is Death Fan, which has all the episodes available through MegaUpload, but Death Note TV also has most of the episodes, including some you can watch online.

• article:  Gunman in massacre contacted NBC News 
• article:  Ex-classmates say gunman was bullied
• article:  Seung-Hui Cho was a mind controlled assassin
• videos @ MSNBC:  Shooter’s ‘multimedia manifesto’

as the name suggests, the Grey Lodge reviews (and shares) various types of media for those of us with more… eccentric tastes.  they have pretty much everything – documentaries, art films, audio books, podcasts – even the Daily Show.  they don’t host all of the files themselves, so a basic knowledge of using BitTorrent is needed to get some of the best stuff (I had been looking for a copy of Matthew Barney’s Drawing Restraint 9 for months).  the Occult Review side has just been updated for the first time in about two years, but all the original content is still there, so don’t forget to have a browse once you’re done with GPod.  (which will take a while, if you’re anything like me – and my download queue has never been fuller!)

if YouTube and Google Video are more your thing, check out Anomaly Television, which posts numerous videos each day under a variety of themes (such as UFO Monday and Cryptozoology Wednesday).  don’t forget that you can use a website such as KeepVid to download these videos to watch at your leisure.

• website:  Grey Lodge
• website:  Anomaly Television

when i recently informed my sister that they’ve found structures on the Moon (along with various other unexplained anomalies), she requested some websites where she could see and read for herself.  now, i’m sure she wants to see actual evidence of these structures on the Moon (and Mars), but to be frank, there is no “real evidence” (yet).  what i mean is, there’s nothing that you’d see that would make you go, “oh my god, that’s a building!”  when viewing images of the Moon (or any other astral body), you have to keep in mind that these photographs were taken from very far away, and that many have been censored or doctored by NASA.  in a way, you have to look at these anomalies in context with their surroundings.  for example, take the above picture of a “Moon base” – at first glance, you see a crater on the Moon.  but if you look closer, you’ll notice that although the majority of the Moon (in the image) appears “flat” and “smooth”, the area around the crater in the middle of the image is vastly different.  there are bumps and ridges and lines.  sure, it’s possible that they are natural formations, but then we have to ask ourselves – what caused this “natural formation”?  weather?  a meteor shower?  are these likely options?  and then you have to use your imagination a little – if we took a photograph of a city on Earth from high above, would it still look like a city?  or would we just notice that the terrain looked “bumpy and different from its surroundings”?  that’s often the case with these photographs – they are taken from too great a distance to really represent what they are.  we can’t see the individual streets and buildings and parks.  but we can see that there’s something there, something that’s different from what we might expect.  that’s why these are lunar anomalies, not hard evidence of the existence of extraterrestrials.  we look at these images and say to ourselves, “gee, that sure looks like a photograph of a city taken from a great height”.  the proponents of these lunar structure theories aren’t saying “that’s a Moon base” – they’re saying “that area there looks different and unexpected, and warrants further investigation”.  usually these anomalies are given fanciful names to illustrate what they resemble, or what they could represent.  if we see what looks like streets, we’ll nickname it “the freeway“.  if it’s round, we’ll call it a “dome“.  the important thing to remember is that we don’t really know what extraterrestrial buildings would look like.  we don’t know what materials the architects used, if the structures are above or below ground, if the “streets” are really roads at all.  we could even be looking at the ruins of a city, and not a bustling, thriving metropolis.  a skeptic could look at any of these photographs and state that they see nothing unusual, that the lunar landscape looks exactly as they imagined it would.  but a viewer with an open mind might think, “yeah, that does kinda look like a city from far above – maybe there is something there”.

i’ll admit that i am a “believer” – i think it’s highly unlikely that we are/were the only “intelligent” creatures to ever inhabit this solar system.  i’ll also admit that when i look at some of these images, i can’t see a damn thing.  but then there are photographs that really make me scratch my head and wonder, “what the hell caused/created that?”  as i said earlier, they could all just be amazing natural formations, but i’ll be damned if they don’t look artificial.  so all i ask of you, the viewer, is to keep an open mind, and try to put things into context.  ask yourself the right questions (ie, “how did a triangle get into that crater?”).

a good place to start is the Anomalies Network – specifically, their page on Moon/Mars anomalies.  the links under the “general information” heading contain a wealth of images and information.  the anomalous Moon images page just contains links to images, so is a good place to whet your appetite before plunging ahead.  also be sure to check out the pages about the “tower”, the “shard”, the “castle”, and the “monolith graveyard” on Mars, as these are probably the most “obvious” examples of unexplainable structures.  for a summary and explanation of what you’re seeing, make sure to read the “interpretation of anomalous structures on the Moon” page, where a geologist backs up the claims of the man who originally discovered these bizarre structures, Richard C. Hoagland.

Hoagland actually specialises in mysterious Mars anomalies, so once you’re done perusing the Moon pictures, there is much information to be found on his own website, the Enterprise Mission - and let’s face it: the stuff on Mars is often a hell of a lot weirder.  there’s a lot to wade through, and it’s not particularly well-organised, so good luck.

but back to the Moon – it wasn’t actually the supposed structures that piqued my sister’s interest in the Moon, but my claim that it is a hollow, artificial satellite.  now, i read a hell of a lot of stuff online that i often don’t keep a track of, and unfortunately, i can’t locate the site where i originally read this claim.  however, i did manage to find a number of interesting articles that follow this theme.  Strange Moon facts sums it all up rather nicely, but for further reading, check out the following articles.  if anyone knows of any good hollow moon/artificial satellite pages, please let me know – my inquisitive sister will thank you for it!

• article:  Strange Moon facts
• article:  Our Moon that is not “ours”
• article:  Is the Moon the creation of intelligence?
• article:  Research data on the Moon
• website:  the Anomalies Network
• website:  the Enterprise Mission

• mp3:  Smog – It’s Rough  (from Wild Love)
• mp3:  Smog – To Be of Use  (from Red Apple Falls)
• mp3:  Smog – All Your Women Things  (from The Doctor Came at Dawn)

it is a clever film, and the message it sends is not that the President must die, but tries to imagine what would happen if he was assassinated – and it’s a bleak prediction.  the world is not necessarily a better place with Bush dead – Cheney has stepped up as President, the Patriot Act is expanded and people lose more of the freedom they are fighting so hard to protect, and at one stage, it seems another war is imminent.

the film was made by Film Four Productions in the UK, and was screened there on local tv after premiering at the Toronto Film Festival in 2006 where it won the International Critics Prize.  due to the controversial nature of the film, it suffered distribution problems in some areas (especially the United States), but is now available on dvd.  if you can’t find a copy anywhere, below is a link to a BitTorrent file.  if you’ve never downloaded a torrent file before, click here for some basic instructions.

• torrent:  Death of a President  (from Mininova)

well, maybe if it wasn’t already nearly February – i think my vacation went on a bit long…

not to worry – as far as top tens go, Shots Ring Out decided to out-do everybody, and compile the top 56 music videos of 2006.  while they may not be the best songs of the past year, they definitely are (some of) the best videos.  the clips are available in different formats depending on your downloading needs, so you have no excuse not to check out the ones you haven’t seen – your New Favourite Band may be lurking in there somewhere.

as for resolutions…  well, i’m not gonna list them, so i can avoid the inevitable embarrassment come 2008 when i realise i haven’t stuck to any of them.  one resolution i will share, with blog as my witness, is that i will write more this year.  i’m the lamest excuse for a writer, ever (well, maybe apart from Poppy Z. Brite – would you like some cheese with your blood?).  anyway, in order to mark this momentous occasion, this blog has undergone yet another name change.  (it may also have something to do with the fact that there are already two blogs titled the bitter pill – i have no idea how google missed them six months ago when i was checking if the name was already being used).  so, welcome to the new and improved sewn to the sky.  i am humbly borrowing the name from Smog‘s debut album, a noisy lo-fi affair that (along with Forgotten Foundation) is a poor represtation of the genius that is Smog/(smog)/Bill Callahan.  with his dry humour and gravelly voice over acoustic guitar, he is often compared to the equally genius Leonard Cohen.  and the man is finally playing a concert here next month.  okay, it’s technically (his girlfriend) Joanna Newsom‘s gig, but he’s the opening act and will most likely accompany her during her set.  so what better time to try to create some new Smog fans?  over the next few weeks, i’ll be posting some videos and mp3s to try to give you some idea of how dark and beautiful and poetic and funny and heart-wrenchingly depressing this man can be – all in one song, if he so chooses.

to start with, here’s a track that fits a couple of those categories from his 1999 album Knock Knock.  just to clarify, it’s actually the last line from this song that inspired the new blog name – Bill makes a lyrical reference back to his debut album in the track “Teenage Spaceship”.  one of my all-time favourite songs, it’s hard for me to describe it as anything but sublimely beautiful.  Smog manages to capture the loneliness and longing of the awkward teenage years; the feeling that no one understands – or even sees - the ‘real you’…

• mp3:  Smog – Teenage Spaceship